Hungry for Change

I think something significant happened to my mind this week. I've been eating healthy and all that and feeling great, but I watched a movie called Hungry for Change, which you can watch free here until Saturday. The movie didn't even really say a lot that I didn't already know, but for some reason something clicked for me while watching it. The movie advocates eating more vegetables and fruit and cutting back or eliminating processed foods.

Whenever I'd start a new phase of exercising and eating right, I would just think about all the things that I couldn't eat. I had one goal: lose weight, lose weight, lose weight!! But since I had that heart scare (which was probably nothing at all), I have started FINALLY thinking in terms of my health. What is going to make me healthy? What kind of healthy foods do I want to eat for the rest of my life -- not just for my weight loss goal in the next 3 months?

I decided eating salmon every single day is probably not feasible for the long-term, nor would that necessarily be healthy either. I am going to eat it two to three times a week, I think. But I now LOVE salad. Not the nasty Iceberg lettuce salad -- barf. I got this super tasty Herb mix from Walmart that is so good and flavorful! I am going to eat that every day, and I started mixing in spinach (hello super food!!). Add a tomato, cucumber, radish, cilantro, and parsley and some crumbled walnuts or seeds, maybe a boiled egg -- yum! I got a Balsamic vinegar dressing to go with it, and it is SUPER tasty. Like way yummier to me than what I was eating before. And filling!

It's just exciting to me that I am thinking in terms of health now. I always wanted to think that way. Andrew would always remind me that it's not about the weight that I am, but about being healthy. I'd always nod and say, "Yes, I know." But I didn't really KNOW. It's hard to explain, but I finally get it.

There are a lot of different diets out there, but I've always known that I will not survive on a "diet." If I think of it like that then it will not work. I have to change my mindset and think about the nutrients my body needs to perform well. The movie made sense to me -- diets where you eat mostly meat or whatever, I never understood. Thinking in terms of the Word of Wisdom, I think eating a lot of vegetables and fruit, and some whole grains, and a little bit of meat makes sense. It's not extreme, and it's totally doable.

On a side note, I used the scale on Sunday as a stool to see in the mirror better, and I stepped on the glass and completely broke the whole thing. Argh.

So I ordered a new scale (it's going to come tomorrow just in time for weigh-in!), but I'm kind of worried that the number will be way different on a new scale -- because let's face it, the old one sucked. I think my scale was off by maybe 5 pounds, but I'm pretty confident that the amount of weight lost was accurate. So if the new scale says I weigh 5 pounds more than I thought, that will be really frustrating.

It's disappointing that I'll never really know if I made my 10 lb weight loss goal. But I am declaring myself victorious -- I feel I reached it. Even on Sunday when I weighed myself last I was about a half pound away, and I'm pretty sure I lost more than a pound -- so I'll just declare my goal for March MET.

(This post says it was published last Sunday because I started the post then...annoying. It's Thursday night.)