Week 2 weigh-in and thoughts on mortality...

Well, I just weighed in, and I lost 2 more pounds! Woohoo! Total weight lost = 4 pounds.

This week has been interesting. I worked out every day until yesterday, and I have been eating well -- I felt amazing!

But on Wednesday I began to have heart palpitations! I've never had that before, and it freaked me out -- to say the least. I know it doesn't necessarily mean anything, and my dad's had them for years. But Wednesday night I also started to have a tightness near my heart! Hello! Googling that did nothing to calm my fears.

Suddenly my life was flashing before my eyes, and I started thinking about how my life isn't what I want it to be before I die, and all sorts of dramatic thoughts were spinning around in my head -- mostly, "I'm too young to DIEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!"

It's not that I'm really scared of death itself -- I've watched enough I Survived, Beyond and Back to know that the transition is not something to be scared of. :) But I am scared of not being prepared and not having become the person I want to be. And, of course, not being with my family.

I suppose it's good to be reminded of your mortality, even if there might not actually be an immediate threat. We were just in the middle of deciding on insurance for me to apply to when all this came up -- so that added some more stress. So I didn't exercise yesterday, and I may not today either. I just want to get insurance in place before I do again (want to rule out serious problems)....but I don't want to get out of the habit and lose my motivation because I was feeling so great.

Anyway, we'll see...I might just do some mild exercising or something. Hopefully I will keep losing weight because I am really watching what I eat. Last night I made a "Cheesy Eggplant Bake" that was really tasty! Andrew didn't love it quite as much as I did -- he said it tasted really "healthy." But he did like it. It took much longer to make than I realized it would, but I really enjoyed it. Here's a link to the recipe if anyone's interested.

I think the heart stuff has just made me that much more committed to being healthy. Not just losing weight -- but really getting and staying healthy. I want to be around for a long time with my family, and it's time to start taking what I put in my mouth more seriously.

Here I come WEEK THREE.